Nightgirl Down Posted 10/13/2009 2:22:27 AM by Nightgirl - [Show All My Posts] It's been a bad week. It all started when I was talking to Cherry, my DJ manager at Heroes, and moaning (again) about staff turning up to work in casual clothing. We only have one rule for our staff, and that's that when on duty, they wear a recognisably heroic (or villainous) costume. It's not a hard rule to follow, and we don't think even a particularly unpleasant one.
Anyway, Cherry sent out a notecard to the DJs, who are the main culprits. It must be something to do with the artistic temperament. To sweeten the note, we agreed that any staff could have any of my Heroes Clobber costumes that they wanted, free of charge, as a perk.
Resistance came from an unexpected quarter. One of the DJs, who I consider a particularly close friend, refused to be told what to wear, and quit. Both Cherry and I were surprised and disappointed by this, especially as this DJ was by no means the worst offender. However, we dealt with it, and covered her slots with our replacement DJ.
I talked to the DJ later that day. She wasn't making much sense to me, flitting wildly backwards and forwards between extremes. She started by telling me she was quitting SL altogether, then later said that she would come and play her sets in costume after all. And right at the end, she dropped her bombshell. She has a brain tumour. She's already fought cancer twice, and this time she's decided to just accept it. She probably won't see Christmas.
We are devastated. I've only known her since last Christmas, but she has been a part of our little family ever since. It feels every bit as real to me as losing a friend in the real world.
I met with Cherry and Garbo on Saturday. I'm lucky to have such good friends, and luckier still that they help me so much at Heroes. We were supposed to be holding a big event this coming Friday, organised by my wife MajorP. The DJ was going to be...yes, that's right. My friend. Cherry had stepped in when it appeared that she was just throwing a tantrum, but now, it just didn't feel right. We weren't prepared, and none of us had the will to put the effort in. So we decided to postpone it.
And now it's worse, because MajorP and I have had a big falling out over my decision. Where I am emotion, she is practical. She'd put a huge amount of work into the event, had invited lots of guests, and was having to deal with a lot of people who were very annoyed at the postponement. I understand that it wasn't a nice thing for her to have to do. I know that the club will go on, and that we need events like hers to keep people coming.
But at the same time, Heroes has always been more about friends than profit or popularity. Our vendors mostly pay a small percentage rather than rent, because they are there as a service to our guests. I sell my costumes cheap so people can get into the spirit without spending a fortune. I know this is a cliche, but I see our staff as a family. And I am faced with losing a member of our family. That is more important than any event.
All I wanted was to be held, to be told that I'd made the right decision, regardless of whether or not it actually was right. I didn't need to be made to feel worse than I already did.
And now, I just feel very, very confused. I needed to write this. I'm not sure I need to keep it here. And I'm not sure where to go from here. I am lost.
Night xx
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Readers Comments 1. Just keep communicating, because then... people can communicate back. And perhaps one of the communicators will lead you from your lost place into a new direction. Can you imagine how lost the DJ is feeling at this moment in her live? It would be nice to be her communicator and show her the way. There still is time....
Hugs, Pc Posted at 3:25:44 AM on 10/13/2009 by pcoach lavendel | 2. The last time I saw her was when she told me the news. I've been waiting ever since, hoping... Posted at 4:00:17 AM on 10/13/2009 by Nightgirl | 3. When you're at work, you don't get to do what you want, when you want, and how you want. There are company rules that are to be followed. I have to dress nice to go to my RL job. I am not allowed to wear jeans (as I would prefer). I'm not allowed to smoke at my desk. We're not suppose to spend too much time on personal phone calls...it's all part of the job. If I don't like it, I suppose I can quit but hey, I need the money.
I hope you and MajorP make nice and SOON! Life is too short to waste one minute being pissy. XXOO -S. Posted at 6:12:40 AM on 10/13/2009 by -Blue | 4. hugs Nightgirl, I'm sorry to hear about your friend. :( I do hope things work out for you, Heroes and your wife. Posted at 6:40:30 AM on 10/13/2009 by Adriane MacMoragh | 5. I'm very sorry Nightgirl, stay strong it will work out, blessings to all Posted at 10:12:13 AM on 10/13/2009 by selenelily | 6. Abby,
As we've discussed, there really aren't any words that can make this better. All we can do is pray, and be there for each other. When you need a hug, you know where to come.
Love you hunny, Cherry Posted at 1:56:42 PM on 10/13/2009 by Cherrybomb | 7. Abby
Remember Heroes are all a team even those like me and others that are on the outside fringe, we all care for each other like family. I will be here for you and others who just want to talk or just need a virtual cuddle to make them feel safer.
There is a big picture on the wall of the club of all superhero's standing as one, that is us. We all stand together as one and always will do.
Love
Cal Posted at 6:30:32 AM on 10/14/2009 by caliente lemon | 8. I've been offline for a little while. You know where I am, as you've been there for me plenty of times. Times like this can test you to the extreme but as Cherry and Cal have said we can be there for each other and you know we're like family, we've known each other some time now. Quite a few of us have been through a lot together in SL and also in RLC. You know you have friends who care more than words can say.
Love Ro xoxoxo Posted at 12:34:51 PM on 10/26/2009 by Rorrim |
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